Crying… yeah…crying becomes one of my favorite activities. Why? Of course because I can’t stand on everything anymore, I can’t handle my emotion, I can’t screaming, then I can’t handle this tears anymore. Too many problems, too many hatred, too many gossips, too many egos, and too many competition. My tears can’t solve them, but I can feel the real me inside of liters of them. The real me who can’t do anything well. I’ve tried harder and harder, but still it’s meaningless. Now, I’m thirsty, I’m hungry, I’m sick, and I’m really really tired. Second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, and day by day is really hard for me. Nothing I can do. I’m too weak and have no power.Who am I? I am nothing. Today I can keep my spirit to fight, but tomorrow I can’t. Really weak. Poor me!!!
Then, I heard a really really peace voice, “My dear daughter, I love you and I’d glad to hear all of your problems. Although all this world don’t wanna hear you and don’t care to you, I still love you. You are really precious to me, so talk to me dear. I’ll listen to you and always help you in the ways that you never think about”. And, I’m crying again, but it’s the tear of happiness. I’m to silly to forget Him. He gives me his dearest Son, ,,how can I forget Him??? With tears and with all my weakness, I come to Him. I talk to Him. I’m crying and I give all up in front of Him. Then, I can feel He hugs me and says,”Don’t worry my lovely daughter, I’m always with you. In anytime you breath, I’m always available inside you. Trust me. I’ll help you in every difficulties you face as long as you walk with me. You’re special and really precious to me. I’m always want to see you smile, laugh, and bright. I’m also sad if you’re sad because I really really can feel your feelings. I’m your Dad. Let me keep you in my hug and please stay by me”.
I stop crying and close my eyes. Yes, He really hugs me. It is really peace. I can feel His deep love to me.
Then, He says,”My dear daughter, can you smile for me now? I know that you can face this world. I know that you can keep brightening. You have such great spirit. Many people needs you to give them the strength to struggle, although you can’t realize it now. Trust your heart and always keep your faith. Remember, I’m always here, inside your heart, as long as you provide a little space for me in your heart. And, please love everybody like I love you. I promise, you’ll get your happiness”.
Then, I wake up and get up and smile to this world.
Thank You My GOD, thank You Jesus for always besides me. Thank You for the love. The pure love that gives me strength to keep brightening. The pure love that makes me denying all the worlds’ hatred. The pure love that makes me love others. Thank You Lord…
